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Stroll on the way home
Depressed heart, just like at yesterday's weather, sank, hidden and hidden, wet, fog fog, boundless and indistinct, seem whole individual soak in dark in the shallow pond, want, jump out these steam condense the place, break away from the land of this scene of misery, will totally free out, will let oneself be easy by oneself, let oneself be made joyful fearlessly, let oneself be above worldly considerations, in others' view, this point is sought for very small very usually, but difficult to realize in my view. I struggle in this boundless border margin earnestly, attempt to catch a gleam of hope, but there the one that can use to catch hands in the perimeter, only according to personal strength, it is difficult to jump out the awkward situation. The current situation lets my mind be more fascinated and more boundless and more indistinct. In helpless and sad perceptual world, it is fragile and negligible that I feel cicada's personal strength of human nature again.

The song drum with deep feeling has been entered in my ears, then is full of sentimental melody, the compassion feeling that then is full of losing, to my mind, I close the eyes for a moment, esthesia is like at this time, such melody, really sow for me specially, touch my soul, move that most concealed and sharp and soft feeler signal receiver in my emotion, with one climax following another, the mental state is difficult to be flat. I have stepped the step, have no direction in the heart, totally allow the foot to control oneself, brain one blank, way extend under foot, foot stroll retinue at road, people are always tormenting oneself, people are always slaughtering oneself with baffled mood wondering. Quickly, I reach, Lin Zi is a lot very high but not thick trees in the woods, but that dense one is green can let the whole surrounding area be concealed and can't see the direction, this is a perfect destination, step into this woods, can not hear the sound outside, the feeling inside but the freshness that has never had like this is comfortable. How 's world is this one, have the knack of and have the knack of person, can think of thing that can't think, the feelings not liked and not to one's liking, anyway alone, the depths of band of outlaws of place, in the air, the breath of the earth is very dense, the fresh air lets me have a kind of feeling of suffocating. This is a pleasant place of staying alone, in this definitely big oxygen bar, I am sucking in big mouthfuls, vomit and receive in big mouthfuls and connect for five or six minutes, feel serious oxygen deficiency stops to the brain. I do not want to shoulder the good environment of this scene of bands of outlaws, vomit and receive with the nose mission, suck in deeply, vomit very heavily, transport fresh oxygen exerting all one's effort again, breathe out quickly. It takes six minutes like this in this way. These ten come minute, may almost spit all waste gas of retentions, lower the pace, suck the nose to suck and use with the mouth, also spit the nose to vomit and use with the mouth, time to insist on seven minutes. I have remembered one vomits method to receive, the deep one is sucked, sucking should use up the strength. A dense one vomit, spit, want all in the heart spit one silk leave, I try, walk so, still some do not suit very much for the moment, feel the head washes the blood, the body was sent the void, I lowered the pace. Doing the movements of receiving of vomiting repeatedly, fast for a moment, slow for a moment, urgent for a moment, slow for a moment, deep for a moment, light for a moment, draw and retain the turbid air for decades emptily in the heart by every possible means, I can hope for it these things not clean, the companion is one suits of bad luck of mine, disappear without a trace. In this stretch of world, I immerse the feeling disturbed in green purpose confusingly, in the washing of the fresh air, no longer only think of the selfish desire of the common customs, does not only think of the personal gain or loss again, no longer only think of the emotion entanglement, and enjoy this boundless natural favor. I stand upright among nature, demonstrate mind to me naturally, I who am actual, will cause not and think. fashionlife99

Enjoy green purpose to the limit, receive fresh to the limit, I gloomy mood have one's heart filled with, sigh sad intestines by oneself again no longer, melancholy to vanish, clear off. I have not strolled on the way home to one's heart's content without purpose of distracing thought with heart.